My name is Liv, and I waited to get married until I found the relationship I WANTED to last forever….
Since 18, I prayed fervently to get married.
Almost every prayer for 10 years, I asked God to send me a husband.
And at the same time…
– I chased unavailable men
– I ran away from commitment
– I clung to my “list”
Generally, I didn’t ACT like I was ready for a husband. (And then I would yell at God in the car for being single.)
It was MUCH easier to absolve myself from responsibility around my behavior, than just give myself permission to not want to get married yet and experience different things.
I felt caught in the paradigm that I needed to be different, to abandon myself, the align my will with God’s.
Wanting—alone—doesn’t mean receiving
I changed my actions, my prayers, and THAT changed my outcome…